...I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love. -Marilyn Monroe

i totally let him read my blogs. not all of them. but like the main ones on here. watch me scare him away now.

crapcrapcrap. i didn't even want sam to read them, and they're not even about him.

like i wanted him to know but then what if he doesn't really care or is just like omg she likes me too much?

wouldn't be the first time i scared a guy away because i liked them too much. ok. it'd be the second time.

but still. ahh. and he's not a big 'feelings' guy and i bet i blew it. i should've just told him about the myspace ones.

*sigh*

oh well.

least now he'll see how i am on the inside.